Forgive me, this will probably be short; but I wanted to update you all on the progress of our little chickadees. We were told on Sunday that we had 5 embryos...2 were good, 2 were average and 1 was below average... okay, I can stomach that......

Today, we were told that of the 5, only 1 was biopsied today. There is another one that is looking pretty good for biopsy tomorrow, but the other 3 probably won't make much further. I keep telling myself "it only takes 1" Since our last IVF round, I have prayed and prayed for at least just 1 healthy biological baby. Of course, I would LOVE to have our 3 children that I always envisioned in my life. But it's not looking like that is going to be at all the way I imagined it. Yes, we still may get our 3, but it just might not be from us. BUT, I REALLLLLLLLLY pray that we can have at least just 1 that is biological

I feel so weird. I feel nothing. I feel flatlined. How do you know the difference between trusting your gut and having a good feeling that you will have at least 1 healthy one versus just wanting something so badly that you just "feel good" about it but really the feeling is not accurate? Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. That is all I can do. That is all that is in my control. We are still praying for our Christmas miracle. The biopsied cells won't be sent off until January 4, 2016. From there, it will take 2-3 days for results. Deep down, I'm glad we won't find out results before Christmas

Again, I apologize for the short entry. I worked 12 hours yesterday and today and MAN my body is having a HARD time adjusting to those hours again. Thank goodness I go back to my 8 hour days tomorrow. I probably won't post again before Christmas, so Merry Christmas friends. I hope it is a wonderful one. We will be sweating in 70 degree weather....boo!!!!